This song has been in my head all week. I can’t shake it. More than once I have found myself in tears.
“Jesus, Jesus, You make the darkness tremble”
I listen to a lot of worship music. Something feels different with this one. Her voice. She means it.
I’ve known enough darkness in my life to know this is true. I’ve contemplated suicide at times. I’ve felt alone for a good chunk of my life.
I came to Jesus when I was 16 and he got me out of the dark place I was in.
With wisdom far beyond my years, I knew this world offered me nothing. I knew there was no joy to be had apart from Him. I still very much feel that way.
I didn’t really have a faith crisis this last year. My testimony has always been Jesus.
I just found out I had bad information about Him, so I corrected my source.
It shocked me, but I didn’t really care that the LDS church wasn’t true. Because for me, it was never about the institution.
I’m sad that many people go through a legit faith crisis, and just because their dogma didn’t work out and an institution lied to them, they turn away from Jesus.
What could anyone have against Jesus? What’s not to love? He offers you so much, regardless of the wrongs you’ve done. He doesn’t ask you to be elite—he will meet you in the streets—but he will make you elite in the next life.
I was in the streets, and throughout my years as a Mormon I’ve been back there multiple times. Jesus always finds me and brings me home. ❤️
Here we are discussing this idea that Zion dud not have a “faith crisis”—
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