Last night, I was reading the appendix at the back of Lynn Wilder’s book Unveiling Grace. It’s great to see compilation all in one place about the Mormon doctrines that are contradicted in the Bible.
Most of them I already knew.
A lot of them I just rolled my eyes and I don’t care about, because it’s all made up Brigham Young stuff.
But there were a couple new things.
No, it doesn’t bother me, because it’s just validation that I’m on the right path.
But at the same time, it bothers me.
It bothers me because how did I not know any of this?
How have I been in the wrong church for 40 years, thinking I knew God, but didn’t….
As I was reading, I just started to feel really heavy.
I got my knees and cried out to God. “Please bring my family out of this church!!”
“ I can’t take this anymore!”
My mind had already been blown with my previous discoveries. But now all of those pieces were just crashing into absolute smithereens.
I feel angry.
I feel tired.
So worn out by all of this!
Just so angry at the Mormon church for ever existing in the first place. 😭
I really try not to be too dramatic. But honestly. Can you get any more crazy?
So far from the truth and yet preaching that they are the exact 100% truth.
I just can’t handle it anymore. This is not OK what they do. I want to run far away from it.
This has been so much for me to process.
Something I never saw coming.
I woke up this morning still felt really tired and heavy. I literally could not open my eyes and get going.
Eventually, I went down to the kitchen to make breakfast and turned on my worship songs. This is what I heard:
“Kingdoms will crumble. Seasons will change. Your word will stand forever. Your word will stand forever.”
In that moment, God saw me.
This kingdom that I have been devoted to for so many years of my life is crumbling.
I’m in a new season, new chapter of my spiritual life.
On the foundation of Jesus, who will stand forever.
I don’t need to be afraid.
I can let go of my anger. I’ll get there.
God is with me.
There are great things in store.
He told me to focus on the joy of this new beginning, and what this will invite into my life 💕
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